It begins.
If you’re reading this, I’m driving somewhere between a small mountain town in Montana and the great state of Wisconsin, the true beginning of my quest to honor my fathers True legacy by speaking with people whose lives have been irrevocably changed for the better because of my father, see people I haven't seen in a long time, teach awesome online classes, and will always be available for a private class for individuals in groups anywhere within a full day drive of where I may be. Wisconsin is about his central as you can get, and I am so grateful when the folks who were opening the doors to their community for me. I cannot wait to.teach again either, I miss that dearly, hopefully somehow acquire a new camera body, which I was forced to sell due to lies told to me by people I trusted, and most important of all now that I no longer have a place. I can call home. a place where I know I'll always be welcomed with open arms has been added to the list of things. I will accomplish on this trip. How long at last I do not know. The one thing I do know for sure is there is no sustainability for me at this moment in space in time. So I point the nose of rolling turtle east towards a much brighter future in the morning.
I was honored to finally take a night off from packing and go down and check out Tom Elpel's River Camp, spend the night and have my first real night of community in kinship in as long as I can remember
Come of 47!
In two weeks, I’ll turn 47. It’s safe to say this has been the hardest year of my life. I found out things that cut me to the core. I went without food more days than I did with, I’ve uncovered truths that turned out to be lies, and lies that turned out to be truths. I’ve moved seven times in my search for community, for kinship with awake, aware, and vibrant souls who speak my language. People who understand why I chose to walk through five years of fire instead of simply “getting a job.”
Never mistake a beautiful reflection for the intricate grand pattern that guides all
The Power of Choice
We are all where we are because of the choices we’ve made. I remind myself of that often. Yet, I can’t help but ask: What happens when those choices were shaped by people, places, and beliefs you once would have given your life for? How do you rebuild after that?
I’ve lived with a chronic illness for over 40 years, which did not manifest in any real way until about 10 years ago. It is now settled in my heart and five years ago before losing my health insurance. I was told I would need a pacemaker in 5 to 10 years and a new heart valve as well. Those who have limes know how horrible some of the symptoms can be. Another heart is the stigmatization of my decades, old problem with addiction and we're happy to spread rumors yet. Very few actually called to talk to me about it. The only drugs I take this day is a cherry Coke, I'm drinking right now, and the supplements I take for my lyme.
But all of that, the pain, the hunger, the lessons, is now behind me. Every struggle has been a teacher, and I’m determined to learn from them all, however many days I have left on this Earth.
Now, as I prepare to rejoin the human race for the first time in half a decade, I set off on a 12-hour drive east, with just enough hope (and hopefully enough gas) to make it. If you feel like offering a prayer, please ask for a strong tailwind to help Rolling Turtle squeeze out an extra 10 MPG!
This year has taken me deeper into my emotions than I ever thought possible and has connected me to our Mother Earth in ways I couldn’t have imagined. I drive with my head held high and gratitude in my heart, for those who have opened their doors to me, and for those who have done so in the past. S
peaking of the drive is there any of you that happened to live anywhere near 94 due south of Winnipeg, that'll be my halfway driving point for tomorrow. I usually just find BLM land to camp on but if I happen to know anyone in that region, it's always good to see a friendly face so contact me I'd even be willing to go a little bit off trail by an hour or so for a visit!
Straight shot down the I-94
A New Chapter of Teaching
Once I arrive in Wisconsin and get settled, I’ll begin teaching again, my “Pay What You Will” classes. I’ll start slow. Last time I put too many classes up and didn't realize the hours of downloading editing, rendering and then uploading the classes, plus they weren't to my standards and that is unacceptable regardless if you paid nothing for all the money in the world. I'm going do it right this time, slow and steady till I grow into my new place, and eventually, I will "kick the barn doors open” regardless you will gety real, honest teaching from the heart.
Every day since I left New Jersey, I’ve done the best I can with the tools, knowledge, and resources I’ve had. I wake each morning striving to be a little better than the day before. I’m proud that my work comes from a place of openness, honesty, and integrity
I’m deeply grateful for the three lifetimes’ worth of experience I have to draw upon. Every move I’ve made since stepping on that stage for the first time has been in service to a larger vision , one rooted in connection, healing, and service to the Earth. And I will continue that work for as long as I can.
But I can’t do it alone anymore. I’ve had enough of isolation. I’m seeking fellow caretakers. People who want to nurture a bright future for our Mother and for every being who shares this planet.
A call to all true warrior of of the light
Because of the social media storms and attacks I’ve faced, my outreach is limited. So I ask for your help. If you see that I’ve released a new podcast episode or blog post, please share it. If you’ve ever taken a class with me, please leave a review on my Google Business page
Along with the new classes, don't forget about my new Podcast! The Digi natural nomad podcast!
So far it's been a blast to create an interview some incredibly talented mentors and friends like Joe Lau from Fire dojo and Victor Wooten many times Grammy winning best bass player in the world in a long time mentor and friend. I've got another audio only interview with a man named Josh Mills coming up and a few others lined up as well. If you think you would like to be interviewed for my podcast feel free to contact me.
There will be a special podcast episode that accompanies this blog post, but I will not record that until I am driving out.
Thank you to everyone who reads this and watches the accompanying podcast. In that episode, I’ll speak openly about some painful truths, not for pity, but so you can better understand what it’s been like to walk this path.
May love, joy, and purpose beyond self fill your days.
See you on the road.
T3
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